The idea was to give myself two years. Two years to get my shit together. Two years to pay off as much as I can, save money, collect useful items for myself and my future cafe, and to get to work on the business of starting a cafe.
My parents, the whole reason I moved here in the first place, are here for another four years. Four years until my dad can retire. Four years for them to figure out how to sell their house. Four years for them to decide where they want to live when they go home.
Things keep popping up and are forcing me to rethink this two year idea. One thing being something that is unexplainable, for the most part. It’s something that is going to happen but with no definite time frame and for right now is here and will be for at least another two to four years. That is really important to me and has had me rearranging everything in my head for a while now. The newest thing that has come up has actually crossed my mind before and could actually be something worthwhile now. That’s my car. I love my car, my little Honda Fit, the Mullet. It has great mileage and is roomier than it looks, and is just a great car. The first car that I got to actually pick out and buy for myself. It’s special to me. It’s also small and doesn’t hold as much as I would like for a back across the country move. Something bigger, but still with great mileage, can hold more, and be a little more reliable in the cold winter months in places that have seasons, would be a great advantage. My Honda dealership has specially invited me to attend a trade in open house where they are offering to pay more than KBB price on my car if I were to buy any new 2012 Honda. This is quite tempting. Especially if I can get something with all my specifications and still have a similar monthly payment and can be able to pay it off before I move.
Thus 2 VS 4
In 2 years I’ll be 30, no big deal – In 4 years I’ll be 32, still no big deal
In 2 years I can pay off my credit cards definitely, in 4 years I can pay off my credit cards, my car, and student loan
In 2 years I can have my business plan written, in 4 years I can have my business plan written and a lot more items bought in preparation of opening my cafe
In 2 years I’d leave my parents alone here in a place they don’t like without anyone, in 4 years they’d be leaving too
In 2 years I will have only 2 more opportunities for raises, in 4 years, 4
What if I move out, I’m really craving my own space and freedom again. Will that set everything back? Or be enough motivation to tighten up and get shit done. Depending on the circumstances surrounding it I could definitely use it as motivation. Oh, but my gypsy blood is singing and travel sounds great too. I still haven’t seen the pacific ocean, or the pacific northwest. Of course I’ll have time to do and see that eventually. But I’m right here. Maybe tax checks could be splurged as vacation funds? Not very frugal of me. Change, like coins? That would take forever! I really should be happy that I have all these options and ideas and wonderful things to choose from and work towards. They are all chances to live life, and all I do is over think and stress out. I’m going to stop that. I mean really, what’s the point. This is life. I have a job that I enjoy, I have great friends here, and hugely wonderful prospect here, and time. I don’t want to live for the future, I’m going to focus on the now and live.
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